I have gone forward experiencing the position of sorrow and feeling the heart with which you have faced this world of enemies. I know the sorrow of my father who could not come out and live in the sunshine, and the situation of my father who has worked in the shadows. Until today I have gone forward in that kind of life worried that I might become a child who resents his father or who contradicts his father at some point.
And I know that when you found me, you too were worried that I might be like that. You are more anguished than I am, Father, and I know that you are preparing the path you will go feeling your responsibility from a more difficult position than I am in. I have determined not to despair or to disappoint you, even if I go through being pursued and driven out, or imprisoned with both my hands in handcuffs, or experience the lot of a slave or the lot of a servant. I thank you for your grace in letting me not die and remain in your presence from the time that I determined to do that until now.
How much have you worked, Father, to establish someone like this? How much have you sacrificed for the sake of the path I must go, for the sake of the family I must go to? How much have you worked for the sake of the tribe I must lead, and how much have you worked for the sake of the people and the nation I must teach and lead?
And how much have you worked for the sake of the world that this people and this nation must teach?
Ever since I realized that you work far more than the blood in our veins and arteries which moves without stopping 24 hours a day, each time I awakened from sleep I could not help but beg you to forgive me as though I were a sinner. While eating, I could not help but put down my spoon and with tears ask for forgiveness for my wrongs of the past, each time I lay down, not being able to control my tired body, I could not help but scold myself for not being able to have a mind that was concerned about you.
Please look compassionately at my past life which has been like that.
How much humiliation you must have suffered up until now to eliminate so many enemies! How many times you must have suffered unjustly! How hard you must have worked to raise in this way struggling groups, miserable groups that are driven out and pursued amid sighs and screams on the path of death! How much you must have worked to lead us into an age when we could raise our heads and look up while relating to the people, the nation, and the world! We must not become people who, even if we go through the grief of dying thousands or ten thousands of times, forget the fact that until we became as we are now,ourr internal sorrow has been great.
When we consider everything centered on the internal sorrow, of the heavenly side, we see that you are a being to be pitied. However much we might say that fellow named Moon of the Unification Church is to be pitied, it is nothing. I have realized how much you are to be pitied.
However much we might say the children following the Unification Church today are to be pitied, we know that their sorrow cannot be compared to your sorrow, Father.
When we think of such things, we cannot accept your excessive grace, and we come to realize that we are people who must request forgiveness for our sins through minds to be pitied, who must straighten ourselves up a thousand, ten thousand times, and bow to you a thousand, ten thousand times.
When we become people like that, I know that we will not be ruined. Please let us realize that a path centered on ourselves is a path that will ruin us, and a path where we sacrifice ourselves for the world and the nations, and for our tribe and the people of the free world is a path that will resurrect us.
We earnestly hope and desire that you will allow us to become your sons and daughters who know that you are preparing a realm of resurrection that is greater than what we have sacrificed, and who can have minds that are brave and of good courage and go directly towards the enemy.
We have humbly prayed all these things in the name of the True Parents. Amen.
Dr. Sun Myung Moon
